Taking A Chill Pill

29 July 2017


I don't know if I'm starting to turn into a travel and positivity blog lately? I'm not complaining about it, I enjoy writing positive posts, I just worry I'm going to run out of new ideas soon. Oh well. Today I wanted to talk a little about my new mindset, specifically, why I'm learning to zen out, or just chill.

I've been watching a lot of the 1991 Point Break film, which you'll know if you know me irl or you follow me on twitter. I love it so much, it's amazing! I'm at a point now where on a few occassions, the film has been the first thing I've thought about when I've woken up. That's also pretty bad, but idc. Anyway, the film follows Johnny Utah (Keanu Reeves) working as an undercover FBI agent who has learned how to surf because it is believed that the ex-presidents, who have robbed 30 banks in 3 years, are surfers. He becomes close to a group of guys (Patrick Swayze, Bojesse Christopher, John Philbin and James LeGros) and then discovers that they are, in fact, the surfers he's looking for. (Not a spoiler. It's made pretty obvious.)

This isn't an unnecessary paragraph, I promise. Anyway, I've been watching this film a lot, and one of the running themes is about spirituality, and understanding the world around us. Surfing is always a sport I've wanted to take up, and in particular, I've always wanted to take my first step on a board in Hawaii, which is still the game plan for when I travel next year. Bodhi (Swayze) in this film is referred to by Agent Pappas (Gary Busey) as being "the zen surf master". The more I watched the film, the more I thought 'actually, yeah, I can understand their mindset. It makes sense to me."

Now, I'm not talking about robbing banks, because I have really good morals and that's not something I'd ever so much as consider (unless I was in the role of a bank robber in a hollywood movie, obviously) but the idea that we can be connected to nature is one I feel quite strongly about, especially when you consider my love of volcanoes and my ideology that we take the Earth for granted each and every day, yet as soon as it fights back, we run. I've always had this mindset, yet, I've never actually realised.

When I talk about how spiritual I've been getting, I think it's important to note that I'm not talking about religious spiritualism, which I know, seems a weird thing to say. I do believe in God, yet I also don't believe in God. I think of myself as being Agnostic and I'm open to any interpretation that you want to share with me, because I won't fully believe one thing over another unless I have clear proof. But, I am connected to nature. Being near water calms me right down. Walking somewhere, or sitting in a bus and having a cool breeze relaxes me. Walking alone in a field with just my music to accompany me is one of my favourite things in the world - which is why I mentioned that in my post about Falkirk. I'm already at one with nature, and this film made me realise it.

"They only live to get radical. They don't have any real understanding of the sea, so they'll never get the spiritual side." - Bodhi, Point Break (1991)

So now, I'm in a new mindset to the one I was in just two months or so ago. (A thought which has sparked another blog post idea, so keep an eye out for that!) This time, I'm learning to let go of all my worries. I'm practicing yoga, albeit a very basic, beginners yoga.  I'm pushing myself to focus only on the positives, and my new challenge to myself is to get the right amount of sleep each night, because currently I both over and undersleep and it's not healthy. Don't worry, I'm keeping track.

What this post is about is, inspiration comes from the strangest of places. Since I've made this decision of 'being zen', I've felt a lot less stressed, and I oddly feel a lot closer to being who I'm supposed to be. I feel oddly happier, and I don't let the little worries nag at me nearly as much as I used to.

I'm learning to chill for my mental health, and also for my physical health (I've put on weight) and really, just to be the best version of myself that I can be.

Do you want me to document this journey for you? There are a few ways I can think of that I could do, but let me know in the comments what you'd like to see! Plus let me know if you've ever seen Point Break, because I need people to fangirl over the film with!

Until next time, be excellent to each other.